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noone but me from URL @ 1:35 AM seventeen! Every time we're down You can make it right And that makes you larger than life 4/28/2008 noone but me from URL @ 1:08 AM As usual i'm going nowhere with the progress of homework. The ohsofreakin humid weather is not helping at all either. Why's it so damn hotttttttttt. I feel like going to sleep now & go to kallang macs or sth and spend the whole of tomorrow and tomorrow night doing homework there. I know its all in the mind & its a damn stupid mentality, but i really cannot do work at home. My parents are being pretty annoying & its getting on my nerves. What can i do right? Cut myself in 2 or something? You know, this is exactly why i absolutely detest special occasions. Its just kills the special in the special occasion, making it an occasion to be remembered for the wrong-est reasons ever. ):idontwnacryonmybdaypls. I shd just go to ecp on my own, buy myself a small cake, eat it on my own & go home past 12. Like that i won't be being biased or picking anyone over anyone, but myself. Im not prioritising my mother or my father or my friends. But grahh, i hate the positions they put me in. Okay. I suppose i shall I still have lit to do which is due by tmr as well. Dammit. If i don't sleep for 2 nights, thriving on coffee i wouldn't die, right? these lines of lighting mean we're never alone, never alone. 4/26/2008 noone but me from URL @ 9:50 PM This is going to be a pretty long post! 1) HAPPY 18TH SHANKAR-Y DICKORY DOCK! :D .jpg) (This photo is ancient seh!)Finally 18 huh, too bad you still look like a little kiddo! Haha, hope you enjoyed today! :) 2) FRIDAY. Part 1 Went to Joo Chiat Kindergarten with zee clazz to paint murals on the walls. I actually enjoyed myself! Haha, painted a clown on 1 wall with suzy and deborah & then helped the rest with the other birthday cake wall. Since the wall outside was disasterous, everyone went there to help salvage it and it kinda ended with me Adlin & Leonard in that tiny room singing songs and painting, funnn! :) (I gave leonard a pedicure!) Hope the kids like their new wall! & then Ms Goh decided to be a lovely civics tutor & actually treated 7 of us to swensons at parkway! BEST AH! :D Haha. Sat around with the class talking over a lovely dinner. Part 2 Decided to do sth totally random by visiting syimah at work w zarifah! Heyyaw, its all cause we love you yaw! Wah this was the ultimate. Thing is, 1) Syimah works at freakinwoodlands, 2) She ended work at like 11.30pm? HAHA. Welll, long story cut short, we went to surprise her (syimah looked SUPERCUTE in that apron) & she gave us shiok free pizza & pepsi! Heh :) & then there was the problem of gg home so late at night. Woah dammit, Singapore should really cater to past-midnight-transportations. After running here and there, Zarifah & i ended stranded at hougang & it looked like freakin ghost town mann. So then we cabbed home. But! HAHA, i think i went a bit crazy on the train, thought of our dilemma and started laughing like hellllll. Hahahah! Despite it all, it was really very funny! Hahaha. Eh syimah, woodlands sarks yo! HAHA. But you rock la, you rock! TGIF was awesome! :D 3) SATURDAY. Part 1 Central Meeting, wellllll. Hello to everyone again! Its always nice seeing people! :) Haha, thats all i have to say; well, here at least. Part 2 Outingggggg! T'was syimah nurin rupini reddy shankar & myself. Went to yishun for lunch at kopitiam! (syimah: cannot yaw! the chemical will react with maltose and then you become mampos!) HAHA! After that we surprised Shankar with his present! (Hope you like it! :) & then rupini left for her college play while the rest of us went to esplanade to chill. Well, we really chilled, hahah. Just talked, laughed & lay around. & then we surprised Shankar with his cake! Whooptidoo! I think im a good surprise-r! HAHA. kkk, anw shankar i hope the wish you made comes true for us all. Happy birthday yo, i hope you enjoyed todayyyyy! Yeap, took pictures and then headed to kfc for dinner. (Yeah we eat a lot, whateverrr). Its damn annoying tt marina sq & esp are polluted with mats&minahs, damn gross la really. Sheesh. Ate & then Nurin & i left for homesweeethome. :) Yeap, Friday & Saturday. I shall put the pictures up when i get them. Its almost self-explanatory why i endure through the week just for the weekends. Thank you to all of you who give me the reason to :) - 4) HOMEWORK SUCKS RANT Well, i have a blooooodyhell load of homework that makes me feel XYZANGRY just thinking about it. 1) My share of GPP Proposal- Monday (DAMN PW) 2) History essay on Korean war- Monday (FREAKING 2000 WORD ESSAY TT I ONLY KNEW ABT ON FRIDAY DAMMIT) 3) KI essay on The Truman Show- Thursday 4) Great Ex Lit essay- Friday. 5) All the maths tutorials & assignments & nonsense. You seeeeeee. So many freeeeeaking essays, so freeeeking leeeetle time dammit. Im telling you, its impossible. I-M-POSSIBLE. GRAHHHHHROARBOMB. Sigh. 5) RAMBLINGS. -My mom says she'll get me whatever i want for my bday! -My dad's treating me to lunch tmr, at wherever i fancy! -My dad's made plans for me for my birthday forwhich i don't want to go for. Zomg, i realllly dont want & im gna try get out of it. -I need to get a prepaid number now. -Thinking about homework makes me so mad i tell you i can feel my heart beating a bit faster. -(Im wasting time here you know?) -You're taking me for granted you know? I know & i don't quite like it. But i can't do anything about it, because... because. Ah, if you cared you should know why. If you still care, that is. But whatever, thinking of you is time consuming. Sheeesh. I really don't feel like whatever-ing you, cos it doesnt mean whatever to me. It means quite the opposite, but like i said, i shouldn't be explaining myself here cos if you cared, you really should know why. So, go figure. icaremorethanisound,thisisanattemptatindifference.imissyou): -I'm turning 17 soon. Yipee? -GOOD LUCK to all those kidz taking your MYEs now, all the way! -I want to play with sparkles, go fly a kite, go to jurong's swimming complex & do a whole lot of things. & ohohoh! I want homework to VANISH. like vanishpower02, gogogoo away. -I want next week to be a nice week & although i highly doubt it'll be, im really gna try my best to make it good. Part of it means that im gna be a grumpy looking panda with eternal bad hair day and pimple pop-outs. (cos thats what lack of sleep & homework does to me) NO WORRRIESSSSS! :D Have a pleasant night! Now can't you see, something's missing you forget where the heart is. ): 4/23/2008 noone but me from URL @ 9:26 PM YABADABADOOOOO! :D It feels lovely being able to come home early and not have any pending homework to do :) Its a Wednesday and i miss Cedar quite a bit. Today was a fine day anyway. Morning was pretty shitty, for reasons i shall spare you, but after that suzy adlin tze kai & i went to ice cream chef & hey! Ice-cream can make anywady (inside joke!) happy! :D Came back & attended the ohsoboring Humanities Symposium, but was basically chatting away with suzy & leonard. It was really a horrid bore, goodness. After that caitlin leonard suzy kendrick & i sat around the stone tables talking away about the silliest stuff :) I like. Anyway, the sea looked so alluring today, reallyreally! With the slight breeze and the sunlight glimmereing on the seawaters; butttt it was just too freakin hot to go to ecp. I shall go soon though! Hey you! We have a mission don't we :) I can't wait for Saturday. & then Monday! (Vj 4i dinner! :) Whooptidooooo! :D & through it all, no matter what, im holding you in my prayers. imreallydamnscared. So you took a chance And made other plans But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, 4/22/2008 noone but me from URL @ 9:06 AM HAPPY EARTH DAY! Be nice and do something to save the Earth k? I am at school now & I'm gna pon Lit lecture to complete my Lit essay. Yesterday was a pretty fine day for a Monday! Im beginning to like History a whole lot more cos its really interesting. & Lit was amusing cos of Adlin, hahaha. She spat water all over the floor during lit, hahahah! Oh! & In conjunction with Earth Day, i actually bought my mom a plant! Its a pretty little African Violet! & She liked it quite a lot :) Plus, on the way home i bumped into three people who didnt wna talk to me and made me talk to my plant ): Haha, nah it was nice seeing you kidz again! I really like bumping into people i miss :) & then, i reached home, washed the clothes, bathed monty, washed my shoes, washed the toilet, showered, hung the clothes & walked monty. Foowooo, thats a lot of housework for a schoolday. & Its a week to leap year! HAHA. As founded by my brilllllliant friends, apparently there's a leap year in April. It goes like this. 26th, 27th, 28th, 30th! Best ah. Okay so now im gna go back to my lit essay. Im meeting Rupini to go shopping later, whoooptidoooooo! :D &&& IM SO PROUD OF YOU! :D confirm plus chop chilli&carrot&onion&cucumber you're gna rock yo! Left Right Left, you're zeee bezztt! &dontbescared,cosi'llkickyrazz! every claim you stake, i'll be watching you. 4/20/2008 noone but me from URL @ 11:17 PM OH LOVELY SATURDAY! :)  Credits for the lovely day go to syimah zarifah shanisza nurin rupini & reddy! (: I am not gna bother to blog, so here i refer you to shanisza's blog cos she's updated & its a nice post, so go read there! I shall only add that once the rest left, syimah reddy rupini & i slacked at yishun macs from 8-11 just talking and laughing like helllll. Hahaha, bonding yaw :) *doinks* & i just wanted to say that, i love my saturdays! I can't wait for allll the manymany plans we have to materialize :) &&& nish suria rupini narmo! can we prettyplease make our fridays a regular? like, if not every week then once in 2 weeks or something. kkk cancancan? I go to school for the weekends. I can live like this i guess i hate how much i love you): its not good for my own good. GO GO POWER RANGER! :D turn around, and fix your eye in my direction, so there's a connection. 4/18/2008 noone but me from URL @ 11:28 PM LOVELY WEEK! :) My previous post mentioned that i wanted to meet people that i miss. Well, Wednesday! Syimahcuckoo called Rupini & i down saying tt she seriously needed manpower for campfeast. So with the 5th & 6th core values in mind, we went. (I shall not say what happened ah syimah, i forgive you cos you're my soldier sister..) Got to meet Syimah & Shankar. & After that i met zarifah for dinner otw home! (: Thursday! It was VJ vs CJ guys soccer match at VJ. &&& Natalie came down to support, yipeeee! Haha, adlin & i were more happy to meet natalie actually. I hadn't seen her in donkeyyears! :D It was nice to see you again natalieeeeee! Friday! Went to meet Nish, Suria, Narmo & Rupini after school; tamil class gang yo! Zomg, i've missed ya'll like hellllllllll! ): It felt damn good to sit around and be ourselves, just like the gooood ole' times (: Eh, more fridays together okay! I love you guyz! &&& we bumped into Esthereeee at ppmacs! (: yayy! It was nice to see you and talktalktalk again; you havent changed mann, you & your aunty voice, hahaha! Plus, we bumped into 2 part cs as well. Hello you two! (: L-O-V-E, I LOVE YOU & YOU LOVE ME! :D g-a-y, that is damn gaygaygay, hohoho. i love bumping into people i miss! Anyway, I got so upset cos last night whilst i was peering into the mirror looking at my teeth, i realised that 1 tooth is actually croookeedddd! Omg, crooookedddddd okayyyy! ): So now im back to wearing my retainers again & it hurts bloodyhell a lot. Sheesh. Well, there's ndp tmr, i predict its gna be gooooood! :D This was a really nice week. I could do with more of these kinda weeks, haha. adios samigo! do you know that your love, is the sweetest thing? (: 4/16/2008 noone but me from URL @ 1:54 AM ADLIN.F CURSED ME TODAY. fjdshfgoshpshijlrtjs! :( I kinda enjoy sitting round the stone tables, having easy conversations about nothing important with zee clazz just laughing at the silliest things. A11 is starting to feel warmer (: albeit politics; inevitable someone once said. Im looking forward to tomorrow! & this is stupid considering that its so freakin near now, but i miss going to ECP. I can't wait for the June holidays to go blading/cycling/swimming & do all those leisure stuffs; and all those planned but unexecuted stuffs as well (: But june'd mean studying for mid yrs as well, sheeeeshkebabs. Funny, my MYEs are only over three days (23-25 june), haha. But actually i realise that we study sofreakinghellalotmore than sec school for only, 5 subjects? No sense really; nonsense. & there's some stoopid shit thing gg on with hq lockers that really sucks like hell. Really, dammit. Im in a pretty neutral mood now; tired. Not quite physically but neither quite mentally as well. I want to go meet someone i miss and do something i like. Oh, i wrote in my diary today! :) That made me happy, i don't know why. Alrightyyyy, i shall go grab 2 or 3 tim tams and attempt doing maths. I dunno if its just me, but A level maths is freakinnnnn tough. something's wrong with us, you can't not have realised. do you not mind? cos it gets me quite badly ): i miss you. Out of the doubt that fills your mind You finally find, you and I collide 4/14/2008 noone but me from URL @ 9:02 PM Three things. 1) Rupini was damn funny today! Hahahaha. HAHAHA! Loser la you, whaat only title drown. HAHAHHA. 2) Friends are the one who will come over to your house to administer medicine to you when you're not feeling well. (Food, drinks & laughter for my violent baby & i). soooooooo swwweeeeettttttttttt! :) Mucho love, muchmuch love. 3) I enjoyed the long talk i had with you today. Its been long hasnt it? But not too long i guess (: throughandthrough. This would hold meaning only to the above people. Well, they know who they are. there's just no one who gets me like you do, you are my only, my only one. 4/13/2008 noone but me from URL @ 3:39 PM Friday- 55th Cadet Officer POP It wasn't too long ago that we got our ranks too.  It wasn't too long ago that zee 2 airborne ranger dudes at the back were our PCs for clt course. It wasn't too long ago that we became part of the limited edition central females. Im glad i embarked on this journey. Soldier Gang yawww! :D Saturday- NDP I think the sun really likes me a lot la dammiit! I know im irresistible (aha) but GO AWAY! ): It was ndp 05 that made me become super dark & i dont want it to happen again. I am going to go hunt for the highest ever SPF sunblock and buy it, sheeesh. & yayyy nurin! Do us proud mann! I'll be supporting you all the way, which includes laughing at you when you take out the umbrella during the parade, hahaha! :) NDP is gna be one hell of an event! :D  Went to airport for lunch with soldier gang -shankar ( :( )& syimah got so excited! hahaha. It's always nice sitting around & chatting with them :) Decided to go for the Swisswinds Band Concert with zarifah after that & foowooo, i never knew band concerts could be thaaat good! Felt like tearing during the winter sonata piece & the others were so good tt i kept getting goosebumps! The percussion & drumline was awesome too! :D &&& they played the ncc song! Haha, we all started singing superrr loudly! HAHA! Pride yo, pride. A decision made btwn 1 mrt stop, im glad i went! (: Saturday was a lovelyyyy dayyyy! :D - Anyway, I owe you an apology Adlin, im sorry ): I'll still come support you at competitions, the good ole' cheerleaders. & i'll train with you for armpower alright? :) Now i have another decision to make. Nothing's gna beat soccer or rock climbing though. eeeeeeeeks. & i got another freakin F for my freakin PI, dammit. helllooooo positivityyyyyy, please hurry backkkkkkkkkkk. School again, i can't wait for Friday! if i say it like i mean it, then maybe i'll believe it like its true. 4/11/2008 noone but me from URL @ 2:50 AM Check out the time! Im still awake & proudly doing my homework. okay, so what if i slept from 8pm- 1am, haha. I've just finished draft 3 of my PI and i hope i do better than a freakin F this time. School yesterday (Thursday) was fine; actually come to think of, school everday is fine now. I don't dread going to school so much anymore! :) Yipeeee! Its probably just the waking up early & dealing with tonzzz of hw that's a put off. But since im changing over a new leaf, hopefully soon enough both factors will be overcome. :D Sometimes it feels good when you're litte miss positivity, haha. &&& Zee Bezt part of zeee weeeeeeek, Tomorrow's fridayyyyyy! YABADABADOOOOOOOOOO! :D I finally get to meet my solider friendzz! :D :D :D Alright, i shall embark on my History Essay on who started the Korean War, adios samigo! :D Think again. Dont dread, doesn't mean you enjoy. You smile too much, doesn't mean you should stop. Just cos you promised you wouldn't, doesn't mean i believe you don't. I think i know more than i let on. You watch out. im loving angels instead. 4/10/2008 noone but me from URL @ 12:19 AM THIS IS ABSOLUTELY RANDOM.            .jpg)    I think I’ve kind of figured out why; it’s always the hardest to hide the truth from the people who mean the most to you. But we are the lovers, If you don't believe me, Then just look into my eyes, Cause the heart never lies They see right through your eyes to your heart.  just sit back and hold on, but hold on tight. 4/07/2008 noone but me from URL @ 10:44 PM UPDATE! :D Friday- Speech Day! So yeap, went back for Cedar's 50th speech day. Met some of my 4i lovelies there! (: It was reallllly nice to meet them again, esp ppl like abby lichu & adel! I havent seen you auntiesss in agesssss! Caught up with them & then we had the event. Lucky i was seated close to abby so we kept talking throughout, hahaha. &&& Mr Ronnie sat behind us! HAHA. Well honestly, i never thought i'd be sitting there about to recieve that award, but well, all i want to say is that when there's a will there's a way. (I rmbr i even had a crazy post with a beeeeg no 6 saying how 6 was my favourite number, haaaha. O level madness.) So to my part Cs (ya'll will always be my part cs), aim high, set your goal in mind and studyhard studysmart fullllll speed ahead k. Don't let anyone tell you that you cant, not even yourself cos you'll never know till you've given it yr all. So, do yr best & leave no room for regrets. :) I know you know ya'll can; anyth's possible, its all in the mind yo :D Marly's & Sus's mom actually hugged me, hohoho. My dad came down for me & although he never quite said anything coming down itself meant quite a lot to me :) The last to be heard of the phenomenal class of 07; t'was the last time we sang the school song. Affirmation Ceremony! Booked in on Friday night with zee rezt aft jalan kayu-ing with syimah rupini & zaz. (Going to jalan kayu should be made a verb, seriously) Slacked ard at Central office & OMG SYIMAH WAS FUNNY SHITTTT. I laughed in that one night more than i've ever laughed in like 1-2 weeks la, wlau! I shall get the video from nurin & upload. Anw, fast forward to Sat! Affirmation! I did the fast rapell down with Rupini & the thing ended damn fast ah! hahaha. It was pretty exhilarating & awesomeee! :D But the real show segment was damn powerrr; i was recording it and omg, everytime a pair went down my heart would start beating quite quickly. So yipeeyaiyaiyipeeyipeeyai to rapelling team! :D Well done to everyone yo! Kudos! &&& to Warface! Its finally over! Goodjob kids! Its soley yr efforts that paid off & im proud of ya'll for that! & of course to allll the other teams that made affirmation successful! It was also nice walking around and shouting "helllooo"s to people, we knew. :] then went out for dinner with the soldier gang - syimah! (imissedyouyo!) nice saturday! Monday The humanities scholarship interview sucked. Like, realllllly sucked like anteater sucked sucked sucked dammit. Blooody bastard. How would i freaking know about the reshuffling of ministers in the cabinet? HUH. HUH HUH HUHHHHH My questions were like freaking weird & ppl who are already scholars agreed. bloooooodyhelllllll. I really wanted this thing, dammit. Okay & then so we made our way back from bunoa vista allll the way to vj. again bloodyhell, i reached school in time for the end of school. best you know, best. So we went for rock climbing. When they informed us there'd be trials. Only 20 people can remain in rock climbing. We have ard 40 people now i think. & about that, comments shall be left to a later date cos the www is not safe yo. Jogged after that & zomg i feel so damn freakin unfit. & so now i've resolved to jog every mon, tues & thurs(maybe). ! anw, went for dinner with adlin & then ciaoed home. (oh i waited for the bus for like 40 freakin mins? another reason to go bloody hell) in summary, monday was a pretty bloooodyhelll day. HAHA. - This has been a long and wordy post, but i dont really care. I shall upload the pictures when zeee peoplezz have zent zemmm. z is a nice letter ah. sounds, zexxyyy. HAHA. & there's something wrong with me today, really. I keep going blooooody hell & yet school this week doesn't seem to be so dreadful! (: Im little-miss-optimism! HOHOHO! merrrry christmas! - Anyway, we were talking today. There's so much politics going on, its quite scary. The people you can trust are numbered cos you don't know when whos gna turn around and stab you in the back. I hate two-faced bitches. I mean like, get a lifeeee seriously. Seriously. But its okay, i'll stay out. I like the carefree life i have, i really do. & i thank god for the friends i have whom i can trust. the friends whom i can sit down with & talk without holding back. the friends i have who are there to accompany me & there for me to rant at. the friends i have who pick up my calls during lessons to check if im alright. the friends i have who make me laugh like crazyshit at night. the friends who are there, yet here, in my heart. :) syima[H]olmes says: u can wack me syima[H]olmes says: smack me syima[H]olmes says: i dun cre yaw syima[H]olmes says: as long u smile you seeee, life's gooooood! :D dont take too long to say i love you to the ones you love, cos time has the habit of slipping away. 4/06/2008 noone but me from URL @ 11:18 PM blogs are meant for random thoughts, don't bother reading. blink, see again. blink, you might never see the same thing again. Things happen so suddenly, very very suddenly. Silently, suddenly, It just springs up upon you, you know. Or maybe it doesnt. Its not all that sudden. Just that you've been living in denial thats why it springs up upon you. Maybe it was there all along, happening all along, just that you didn't want to see it & so couldn't see it. This'd be silently and hence suddenly. I wish it weren't sudden. I wish i was there all along. I wish i saw it coming, though we can't see it all. im with you, i pinky promise you.
noone but me from URL @ 4:29 PM me: hey, what did ya'll do for econs tutorial on friday? adlin: Ouch. That was a mean qn to ask someone who slept through econs tutorial! HAHAHAHAHAHA! This kind of encompasses our school days. Speech day & Affirmation, i shall update properly later. To homeworkkkk! Up up and awayyyyy! just realised what i just realized, we'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other. 4/03/2008 noone but me from URL @ 2:18 AM Mental Cases mindmap down! I might be going mental cos im quite wide awake & high. This feeels gooooood! :D but shit la, i want to plan my econs essay but i realise i havent photostated the notes yet, dammit. but im on a rollllll! im not gna sleep yet. thank you for accompanying me yo!
noone but me from URL @ 1:01 AM lit essay down. sarahj, up la ehhh! (syimah tone) HAHA. :D 4/02/2008 noone but me from URL @ 9:18 PM But i won't give you up tonight, Im going to be on a 3day2night trip up Bukit Kerja Rumah. I am going to climb right up and down the freakin mountain & emerge Superwoman. Watch me yo, watch me. 1) PI 2nd draft -Fri 2) Two Armies Lit essay -Fri 3) Plan for Econs essay -Fri 4) Mental Cases Lit mindmap- Fri 5) Intl Hist Korean War Essay- Mon 6) Annotations on Digging poem- Mon 7) Hist tutorials 8, 11 & 12- Wed 8) Math tutorials- everyday. Bukit Kerja Rumah is Mount Hw, if you haven't already figured out. Cheers yo. honestly, thinking about you is too time-consuming. homework gives me greater marginal returns, hah. iwishitdidntthough; you used to make me so damn happy. stay awake, stay awake, survive.
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